Two years ago today, I tried taking my own life. But here I am: a healthy weight, and almost two months clean of self injury. It takes a lot for me to say I’m proud of myself, and I am. I made so much progress in the last two years. I have my bad moments, often, but I know how to handle them better now. I’m so thankful for my second chance at life and all of the things I’ve done, experienced, and learned in the past two years.
Anonymous asked: I'm literally asking everyone I can find on tumblr who went to CEDC this question. My family/team wants me to seek treatment. I'm scared of being left alone when I'm freaking out. Who helps me when my therapist isn't there? Is that what the residential councilors do? Who should I seek out? I want to be helped not feel even more shitty by insensitive people.
Residential counselors are there 24/7 to talk to you and heck in with you whenever you need them. No one is insensitive. They’ve all been there long enough to know what you’re going through to the best if their ability. Cedc saved my life and it could save yours. And besides, you’re probably going to make so many friends that at the end of your time there, you won’t feel alone because you’ll be living with 10/15 of your friends. You’re taking such a brave step and I’m proud of you. Stay strong xo.
I just want to be doing something productive with my time. Sitting at home all day every day is wearing on me and I feel like a worthless, waste of space in the world.